ITs NEW YEAR EVE!!! And what the heck am I doing at home rather than be out there waiting for the count down. Well it is partially because my gang got no idea of what to do and I am kind of tired to squeeze around with people. It will be 2008 in the next one and a half hour, which also means that one step nearer to my trip to burnei.

MY NEW YR RESOLUTION:

1. Stay healthy

2. Get to commission

3. Control the inner ws

4. Get a GF

5. Make new friend

6. Get zero extra

MY NEW YR WISH:

1. All my love ones to be healthy and happy

2. Strike toto

3. Able to buy all the things I like

4. Last one is for me to know and for u to find out haha!!!


Lastly I here by wish everyone a very happy new year and may your dreams come true.

Went for bowling yesterday with the gang. I admit that I have really no talent in bowling just suck at it lol. All we did was walk and eat and eat and eat. Oh and not forgeting that we brought gene to geylang for his advance driving course where he did quite abit of advance training there. Its so convinient to have a car, don't know when will I be able to have my own car.
Tml wiil be new year eve, 2007 is coming to an end and a fresh new year will be starting. And right from the start of 2008, I will be going to burnei. How I wish I need not have to go there as you know I hate field camp. What a way to start a new year. I JUST TO LEAD A CV LIFE!!!!

I finally got my 3 white bars. It was really not easy to get them. I marched over night for about 32km, it was really a killer. I never like route march, it always deal damage to my legs. Now I am just looking forward to my joint term, just hope I can pass my pro term smoothly. Today I offically leave Tango, kind of miss the time spent there. Don't know how life will be in armour.
Went to watch Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium yesterday, it is a magical movie and the rational behind the show is also very interesting. Showing us what one can do if he or her believe in themselve.

Service term is ending soon and Xmas is coming! Proud that I endure through my service term, it was really a wonderful experience staying in TANGO wing. From the first day as a noob cadet till now a senior to be soon. Learn lots of thing from Ah Fu as well as the other instructors. Made lots of new friends and MaJong Kai Ke haha. I am posted to armour and I know its not goign to be easy there but at least I can get out of safti and from being in infantry. Still remember that night where ah fu played a prank on us, telling me that I am going to infantry. For that very moment, my world seems to be crushing down, my mind was totally blank. It was the very first time I can totally understand the meaning of disappointment. Actually I aimed to go signal, not for the slack lifestyle but I think I can learn those setting up of server stuff there which at least have a little bit of connection to my course of study. Just too bad I do not have the fate.

Social night was so so only as the food was not really up to standard. Howevere most of the ladies who attended it were beautiful. Saw most of my platton mates gf, they seems so xing fu. Wish them all the best.

Tml is Xmas eve and guess waht, I got to celebrate my Xmas eve and doing my count down in camp this year. This feeling just suck to the core. Why must they still have cdo and cds on our block leave where no one will be at the wing line. Can't they just lock the whole wing and let my enjoy my Xmas eve as a CV.

Highlights that I did these few days: Went to lawrys to have my second taste of thier cuts. Its still yummy but costly. Went to shop around looking for present but I have not bought any yet due to lack of cash haha. Oh I slpt almost the whole day today. Don't know why I am just so tired. Maybe is the after effect of service term.


LASTLY,

MERRY XMAS TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE!!!! MAY YOUR WISH COME TRUE. DUN FORGET TO WISH ME TOO TML!!! IT WILL BE GREAT IF ANY KIND SOUL WILL TO SMS AND ENTERTAIN ME ABIT TML HAHA!!!

Long weekend seems so short. Went out almost everyday, eat, shop, play and slp. Spent quite a sum of money these few days. Really enjoy my slacker life these few days. There is no fixed timetable, I can do anything I like whenever I want without asking for permission. Went town to shop around and saw quite a number of things I want to buy thus I really need to save up for them. Other than non-living things, saw lots of beautiful and cute gals too. Why time just do not have mercy on me during this long weekend of mine, it seems to be running at a high speed.

Ya long weekend ahead for me to slack and enjoy. Platoon field camp finally came to an end after my hard work of digging trech. Its was quite an experience, digging up sticky mud from the ground. Seriouly doing fire movement up a .85 was no joke especially when I was holding the GPMG ( platoon most powerful waepon ). Kind of proud about myself haha... I had my soc trail test yesterday and I finally pass it. Damm happy about it. How I wish it was the real test. K enough of ns life. Now lets talk about my slacker life. Can't wait for dou niu yao bu yao to be out on vcd. Ya its a new drama by my dream girl HEBE. She is dam cute lah!!! For people who don't watch drama, why not give this new drama a try? Who know you may like it.

WoW! Its been a very long time since I last blogged. One more month till the end of my service term. Really can't wait for the day to come. Next wed going for field camp again and what make it more sad is that my weekend will be burn. Seriously I really hate field camp, it just sucks. How I wish I can fast forward the time. Feeling really dam sian now. Now then I realise that weekends is something I must really treasue, its the only time I am under no command of anyone. Only I command myself, I can do what ever thing I wish, I can sleep as much as I like and most importantly, I can be the slacker I used to be. I just don't like the feeling of being restricted or "caged down".

This week was a very shag week. I seriouly did not get sufficent rest. Slp really late and got to wake up dam early. Not only that almost everyday I was walking all around in the vegetation. Having all the loads on me made me had diffculties standing up and sitting down. Once I sat down I really don't feel like standing up anymore. Today finally go the chance to give the bday present to yan xin. It was a super belated present though. Hope you don't mind ya and sorry I did not have time to wrap up the present haha.... Think thats all I gonna blog, my eyelids are just to heavy to substain. Cya soon!!!

I am home once again. So happy to be back in my slacker life. Dun really want to blog much about my army life because just by thinking of it makes me feel shag and tired. Therefore I shall talk about other things. Just finish watching Y Y love 10 minutes ago. Its a nice AI QING OU XIANG GU, it has story line, very touching phrase and most important an ending that I expect haha. Since a long time ago when I watched my very 1st drama, I wish for a relationship just like one of the drama. Not that I am dreaming too much just that I feel that a relationship should make one feel Xing Fu and happy that you got a chance to meet one that will treasure you and you will cherish him or her.
For example a small thing like a gf preparing a simple meal for her bf where both can sit down and enjoy the food isn't it very Xing Fu. While reading all these you guys may start to think " WS you are dreaming lah!!! Wake up your idea". However I am really waiting for one so called " Ou Xing Gu Lian Qing ". Once again I want to emphasis that if you want to achieve something. Just stay focus and work hard for it, no matter whats the out come as long as you do not regret after it.
Another thing is when you got hold of what you want, cherish it. Cherish before you know its too late. I can tell you its really a bad feeling of having to realise that you have lost something that you did not cherish when its just by your side.

Finally got the time to blog. Since when my weekends become so short. Weekend now is much more precious to me as compare to last time. After being confined 3 weeks inside safti MI I finally got to book out on Friday night. I was so so so so happy about because I almost got crazy inside. I miss my family, my bed, my computer, my buddys and my slacker life. Life inside was really very pack and I hardly got time to breathe and think of whats next. Its just like once I finish this and the next even will come straight.
I had strain my legs too much in there due to the pack timetable. Hope that I can endure through this service term safely. Ws Jia you jia you jia you!!!! And I really hope for a relationship just like those OU Xiang Ju. Cos they are all just so sweet and very xing fu lah... I wan back my slacker and hoping for ou xing ju liang qing life!!!!

Today will be the last day of my block leave. It just seems to be too fast. From tommorrow onwards I will be reporting to my new camp. From recurit to private and now to cadet or should I say traineee. Ya I have been post to OCS ( Army wing ). 9 solid months of tough training will be waiting for me this coming book in. Just hope that I can smoothly pass through all my training and earn the rank and not forgetting about the sword!!! Did quite abit of update on my buddys, it good that all of them are doing well, the smart got smarter, the pretty got even more pretty, the cute one got even more cute. Hope the commanders at ocs will be like my fellow commanders at tekong Ulysses. I am sure I will miss them haha. All the best to all the commanders to be regardless sgt to be or officers to be or even just a man. Wish you guys all the best in your new unit.

One week more to my POP. Feel both happy and sad it just a mix feeling. Happy that I finally can get out of tekong and all my basic training had come to an end. Sad because all of us will be post out to different kind of unit. Threw my 1st granade yesterday, it was really fun but sad to say I am not happy with the throw I have made. Tml will be my IPPT test hope to get a gold if I can. The following day will be my 24 click march, just hope that the weather will be kind on us.

I am back again!!! Times really pass faster when I am outside. Time of booking in just close in way too fast as compare to book out. Had my IPPT diagnostic test yesterday, glad that I pass but sad that I could not get silver. All because of my pull up which I did only six. Seems like I must really train hard inorder for me to pull extra 3 to 4 more or even more so that I can get a gold. I am now in love with jay chow latest song BU NENG SHOU DE MI MI, it super nice especially the lyrics. The words bring back lots of memory. ( Rainy day is not the one that is beautiful, the one that is beautiful was the day we seeked shelther from the rain together....)

Field camp is over. And this is my 2nd book out -.- Very sian tonight got to book in at 2045. Out field was fun and tiring. On the 1st day I went for the 8 click march to my 1st camp site. Fucking hell it was very shag and I almost faint after the march sia. After the march we set up our camp site and got fuck till like shit because our movement was slow. And the suay thing was I got to slp on muddy place and I got to do guard duty that night. 1st time eating combat rations, some are nice well some u know....

After eating the ration for days, I finally realise that cook house food should not be taken from granted. Learnt lots of things during file camp, got to dig my shell scrap, do fire movement and went ard ambushing ppl. Can you imagine when you shit, you can see lots of flies flying aroud your ass. And don't know why they are much bigger in size from those we see on main land. I also had my 1st experience of bathing with powder instead of water. You may think of it like so eeeek but then seriously powder bathing do make u feel good when you don't get to bath with water.

On my last last of the field camp, I encounter wild boar. That day I was still wonder why I haven't got a chance to see wild boars. And I guess I should not had speak of the devil because that night when I was doing my 1/3 alert they came to visit me. At 1st we hear something coming towards us, my friend still thought that it is some sgt coming to check out on us. But then when he tried to halt it, it nv stop it still continue to move towards my friend. Suddenly my friend jump out of his own scrap and shouted:" Wild boar Wild boar". For a second I was still wondering what happend and the next moment when my friend shined his touch, I saw a wild boar right infornt of me and it turned towards me. My balls shrinked. Lucky that it did not charge at me sia if not I sure OOT.

K lah that about all I had for my out field haha. Hope you enjoy reading my 2nd book out blogging. Will be back soon stay tune and do miss me everyone...... BYE BYE!!!

Finally 1st book out of my NS life. Two weeks of confinement ended with sweat, pain and happiness. I am in Ulysses company the only company that have sea views haha. Can't really sleep on the 1st night there but I slp like pig on the following days. I was dam shag. Experienced lots of 1st time during this 14 days at Tekong. The most cool thing was the very 1st time I held a real rifle. It was not really heavy but it still tired my hand when I was told to hold it there in my firing position. My hands were really shaking. The food at the cook house are still edible but I still prefer my mum's cooking. The most sian thing was that I had to march to whatever place I go there. Haiz Booking in tml again and going for my field camp this coming wed. I am kind of exicted but thinking of not getting to bath for 6 days I sian 1/2 liao. Suweee sorry wor cannot celebrate your birthday with u on the actual day wor. Hope you don't mind one that is belated ya. See you in on week time. Wstro will be back again stay tune all haha!!!!

Dudududu.... This going to be the last blog before I go into tekong later which is like less than 12 hours. Actually I could have blog on the trip to bitan kelong but due to some problems I can't get the photos. So will touch up on that when I got the photos when I book out. Say bye bye to my hairs, my heater, my pillows, my com, my N70. Oh ya bye bye PANG dun miss us too much and please do continue the spirit of the Xiao Yaos. Cya all soon!!!! TAKE CARE!!!!

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Yo all I am here to clear the spider web in my blog. Not that I lazy or don't want to blog just that I got nothing to blog. Well then I just got my "present's" birthday photos so decided to write something here haha. Went Holland V to have a so called birthday dinner with of course bday ger cindy and gang. As usual eat and crap all the way lah. Tml toto 3mil!!!! I am not greedy jkust let me win some money for my trip and I am happy with it liao. HUAT AH! HUAT AH! HUAT AH!

I am back from chalet 2007. Finally got the time to blog now. Chalet was like old time. Eat, talk cock, ma jong and sleep. Oh ya we got BBQ this time round, the food was consider not bad as the chefs are noobs haha. Jie en and my owner ( cindy ) were present too. This chalet will be the last for us as most of us will be going NS soon.

Graduation 2007 had also ended. I finally graduate from SP. Time really fly fast. Had lots of fun during my years in SP. I got to know a princess from batam who is my buddy now. Isn't it cool haha. And top student of my course is my so called ONLY friend haha. And also not to forget hk ( Hip Hop ka ke ), raymon ( Ho Li guy ),King arthur, lao da gang, the OIES, bio- class, xiao ming and...... too many to list. Happy that I finish my journey to my diploma. However deep down inside me, I still have some regrets. Hmmmm.... nvm just hope that all of you guys will be happy always. And don't forget that a boy name wei sheng once appear in your life.

Special messages

To: SuWeEe

Buddy thanks for the help that you gave me all these year in poly. Thanks for waking me up during lesson haha. You seriouly need to try to improve on your hand writting. Oh and stop saying that you are very man though you are not afraid of xiao qiang and lizards does not means that you are man haha. Don't be so stubborn ya, sometime just accept the help from others. Remember to stay chubby haha!!!! Shit never pinch ur cheek during grad day wasted. Hope you will find a bf soon and pls do treasure it, don't let it run away again haha... MoOoOoOo!!!! Anyway all the best to you. Got time ask me out ya!!!

To: Yan Xin

Dududud... Only friend, geek, bob, xin xin, penguin, zeeraft, xiao huang.... You got too many names sia. Thanks for all the help in school work all these years. You are indeed my "god of studies". You got to control your craziness sometime ya. Don't forget that you are a ger. Stay clever, crappy, fun loving and cute. Must admit that you are getting more and more pretty and cute. Keep it up ya haha!!! All the best to you and hope that someday in future you will really design a F1 car haha... Same for you got time ask me out ya haha.

To: HK & Raymon

Thanks for working hard during FYP. It was fun during the FYP. Got time drive your car out then we go eat supper leh. HK got time come ma jong or we can can go sentosa. Raymon buy car liao must drive us out. You seems pro in all those AYE, CTE.... Raymon I die also will not forget those Freak la, Ho Li and Zhen de bu hao xiao loh. LOL! All the best to you guys and enjoy NS life which is coming ahead.

To: All others fellow school mates

I too lazy to type liao haha. ALL THE BEST to each and everyone of you all. I really had great time with you guys at SP. If there is time do gather up ya.

ENJOY THE PICTURES BELOW!!!!!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

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Does the law of equivalent trade apply to everything? Does it really means that you will get the amount of return upon what you out in? Lets take studying for example many says that if u study hard you will get good result. No doubt it is true. However other than study does the law of equivalent trade applys to other thing. I have seen and experience things that only hearts and souls are put in but the return was not even half of what was put in. Is it because that people are taking them for granted?

Had dinner alone at mac just now. Sat in the corner all by myself and memories started to flow. It was just then I realise a ger who was sitting not far from me, she was crying. I saw tears flow down her cheek. Can feel that she is really hurt deep down somewhere. I told myself" hey eat your meal and stop beinging a kpo". But somehow I just can't control my eyes. She looked so ke lian. Most prob she had a fight with her bf or maybe just broke up. Hmmm hope she will be ok after the cry. Tears can heal the pain.

Its here. The letter finally arrived in my mail box. 13th of July thats the day where everything ends and a new life begin. Before the letter came to me, I am just like a drifting soul float nowhere in my world. Now that the letter came, out of a sudden it seems like I still have something that I have not accomplish. Not that I don't want to or rather that I don't know how to or maybe its just a dream of mine. Anyway no matter I am going to do an ending before that day.

Its was some time back then when I was hoping badly to obtain the wing. I still think that only the cream can obtain the wing. I looked up upon the sky imagined myself with the pair of wings. Now that I obtained the wing, I was happy at first but I realised that this wing that I have obtained is just so normal. It was such a disappointment to me. Will this pair of wing fly me up to the place that I want. Will I see the dream road of mine with this normal wing. Seems like I am still unable to out shine after all.

Recently I got a wish, I wish to have 2 different me inside me. By having 2 different me, I can just switch to any of them whenever I wish to.

The dead line is closing in. Everything will be so different after that.

CHEESE CAKE..... I want to eat cheese cake.....

If a bad day will just be gone by singing a sad song it will be so wonderful. Ya no doubt I had a bad day today, a really bad one. What will come to it does not really matter to me anymore. And enough of the let go let go thing. I had enough of it. Regarding to the previous post, those were just little hopes that I wanted to kept winthin myself. I already gave an answer to myself after the cheese cake. I really just want it to be like old time. I tried. And here I walk one big round around the bush and say forget it no point talking about it anymore. Walking such a big round make me tired but why do people still want to go about the big round. Ok enough of singing of sad song. Opps wrong it should be typing a sad post haha.

As a matter of fact, I am not going to give up nor bow down to any thing. Letting go is no longer in my dictionary. I know what I really want and this is the way it will be. This feeling is way beyond anything. This is what I choose and the life I am going to live in.

Thanks oreo cheese cake. You somehow made me realise all these. I am now in love with cheese cakes. Its delicious and the best thing is it help me answered questions that I had been thinking all the time. If you also have a problem that you don't know what to do, why not find a cafe and have a piece of cheese cake. It worked for me. Who knows it might turn out good for you too.

Already hiding in dark corner. Am not in the way. Why still being push to the edge. Why?

Sometime I really don't what I am doing is right or wrong. After all I am just only a human, I also got feelings.

Walked in to NTU this morning to hand in my last semester result slip. I don't why the feeling of the 1st block give me a factory feeling. Hmmm hope that is not the block I am going to spend most of my time during my uni life ( provided I can get into there ). Amazingly the admin office of ntu is up on a hill though the air might be fresher up there, the nubers of stairs do tired me off.

After that I went straight to work. The job is so dam sian. It is not any slack as what hm they all used to be. Thats so sad man! SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN!!!!

Typed my very first resume today. It was kind of tough as I really don't know what to write in it. While I was typing my achievements, I realised that I really don't have any. Its really sad. I am really a good for nothing after all. Haiz what a useless me. And looking at my O lvl cert gives me a very big "WTF". What the hell was I doing during my secondary school life, the grades are like shit. If I had listen to my mum last time, I may still be alittle not so useless as compare to how I feel about myself now.

Once agian I only had a meal today. My mum went to work and no food for me. Ya I am lazy but don't misunderstood as I am lazy to think of what to eat. During the home alone period where my family were in China, I kind of like tried all the food around my area and I am so sick of it. I also can't be having fast food everyday. I don't want to shorten my life span you see. SL said that I need to find a wife, one that knows how to cook and knows how to force me to eat haha. Howevere it will be easier to find a wife that knows how to earn than one that knows how to cook nowadays. So guys if you have time why not think about picking up some cooking skills. Who knows in future the trend will be businesswomen and house husband.

I lied today. Felt so dumb after thinking about it. Why can't I just tell the truth. Hope that next time round I can bring my courage out and just say what I intended to say. Hmmmm.... strange the little sense of satisfaction seems to have lighten my day somehow.

Results were out. Its not a very beautiful one. Was hoping for all sharp heads but guess my english just cannot make it. Will I be lucky to get a diploma with merit that I aimed for from the 1st day I stepped into Sp. However with my lousy GPA this may be just a dream of mine. I did badly for O level and now did so normally for my poly. When can I do something outstanding just once.

Been staying at home to try to understand the word 空 （empty). Really can't seems to get anything out from it cause no matter what I do it just feel so empty.

Its been quite sometime since I last blogged. Had been finding things to do these few days. I am so bored, sian, lifeless and what so ever. Now I finally understand the lyrics of SUN WU KONG by May day. There is a line stating that sun wu kong was known to be very powerful yet he still lose to loneliness. Same thing apply to me here. Others around me seems to have lots of programs. Only a few who have the same fate as me stay at home and game. Arrr the evil "bore" killed me and it leave me to rot.

Happy new year!!! I am 3 days lagging behind to wish you all haha.... However is better than nothing. Due to some problem my blog was down for quite some time. Do enjoy yourselve but don't forget to drink more water because to me CNY is eat lots of heaty food and sleeping very late at night. Its finally 2007 for both english and chinese ( as in long li all those things ). Just wish that everyone I love to be safe and sound, healthy and hope I can have a better understanding of what happy really means. Miss "happy" so much.

Went house to house visit with my friends today. Well it is almost the same every year, we eat, crap, walk and gamble. I want to complain about the chinses saying again, they used to say when you do badly in your boy girl relationship, you will tend to have more luck in gambling but why it just don't apply to me. Totally disappointed about it. Done the house to house with my gang but I still don't know if there is one for my poly buddies. No news yet. Or maybe thats it because poly life had ended. Hope thats not the case.

This CNY top few hot question from my relatives:
1) Your poly life ended right?
2) When will you be enlisting?
3) Why never bring you gf along? ( I said no but they still insist that I am lying )
4) Planning to go universuty?

I also found my favourite new mottor or whatever you call that "mada mada dane" which means Never give up.

Ws blog will be down for maintance.... Will be up as soon as possible with my postings... But you guys can still drop by and tag....