As a matter of fact, I am not going to give up nor bow down to any thing. Letting go is no longer in my dictionary. I know what I really want and this is the way it will be. This feeling is way beyond anything. This is what I choose and the life I am going to live in.

Thanks oreo cheese cake. You somehow made me realise all these. I am now in love with cheese cakes. Its delicious and the best thing is it help me answered questions that I had been thinking all the time. If you also have a problem that you don't know what to do, why not find a cafe and have a piece of cheese cake. It worked for me. Who knows it might turn out good for you too.

Already hiding in dark corner. Am not in the way. Why still being push to the edge. Why?

Sometime I really don't what I am doing is right or wrong. After all I am just only a human, I also got feelings.

Walked in to NTU this morning to hand in my last semester result slip. I don't why the feeling of the 1st block give me a factory feeling. Hmmm hope that is not the block I am going to spend most of my time during my uni life ( provided I can get into there ). Amazingly the admin office of ntu is up on a hill though the air might be fresher up there, the nubers of stairs do tired me off.

After that I went straight to work. The job is so dam sian. It is not any slack as what hm they all used to be. Thats so sad man! SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN!!!!

Typed my very first resume today. It was kind of tough as I really don't know what to write in it. While I was typing my achievements, I realised that I really don't have any. Its really sad. I am really a good for nothing after all. Haiz what a useless me. And looking at my O lvl cert gives me a very big "WTF". What the hell was I doing during my secondary school life, the grades are like shit. If I had listen to my mum last time, I may still be alittle not so useless as compare to how I feel about myself now.

Once agian I only had a meal today. My mum went to work and no food for me. Ya I am lazy but don't misunderstood as I am lazy to think of what to eat. During the home alone period where my family were in China, I kind of like tried all the food around my area and I am so sick of it. I also can't be having fast food everyday. I don't want to shorten my life span you see. SL said that I need to find a wife, one that knows how to cook and knows how to force me to eat haha. Howevere it will be easier to find a wife that knows how to earn than one that knows how to cook nowadays. So guys if you have time why not think about picking up some cooking skills. Who knows in future the trend will be businesswomen and house husband.

I lied today. Felt so dumb after thinking about it. Why can't I just tell the truth. Hope that next time round I can bring my courage out and just say what I intended to say. Hmmmm.... strange the little sense of satisfaction seems to have lighten my day somehow.

Results were out. Its not a very beautiful one. Was hoping for all sharp heads but guess my english just cannot make it. Will I be lucky to get a diploma with merit that I aimed for from the 1st day I stepped into Sp. However with my lousy GPA this may be just a dream of mine. I did badly for O level and now did so normally for my poly. When can I do something outstanding just once.

Been staying at home to try to understand the word 空 （empty). Really can't seems to get anything out from it cause no matter what I do it just feel so empty.

Its been quite sometime since I last blogged. Had been finding things to do these few days. I am so bored, sian, lifeless and what so ever. Now I finally understand the lyrics of SUN WU KONG by May day. There is a line stating that sun wu kong was known to be very powerful yet he still lose to loneliness. Same thing apply to me here. Others around me seems to have lots of programs. Only a few who have the same fate as me stay at home and game. Arrr the evil "bore" killed me and it leave me to rot.