My start of year 2009 did not turn out to be good. Or I should just say its bad. Don't even have mood for this CNY. Guess it really affect me alot. Do I really looked that I am happy???? I think I did put up quite a show in that case. And the wish that I wrote on the balloon on new year eve, I think its not gonna come ture anymore. It just flew away. Spent alot on the clothing this CNY. Just wanted to dote myself more because been causing too much harm to myself time after time. Disappointed should be the best word to describe everything.

Went clubbing with my fellow cadet mates on wed. Loved the music. R&B just rocks! Hope they will be going this weekend. Shit I am drinking really too much lately.

Oh ya I think Du Chang De Yi Qing Chang Shi Yi really apply to me. Everytime I start to win alot on MJ, some how or rather my relationship will go down hill. Don't know is it just conincedence or it really happen. So I really dunno to be happy that I win alot or to be happy that I am losing alot.

Thanks to all friends and buddy for hearing my crap when I was really down lately. THANK YOU.

ps: Really thank you for lending your ear during my break down period. You know who you are lol... And I still owe you ice cream. Oh and simle simle =) Don't geng too much ya know iron also will melt one loh haha....

So is it worth it?

HMMMMMMM.... My ans is YES! ITS WORTH IT! No regret =)

Ps: U will always be part of ME.....


HAPPY COW YEAR!!!!

Alcohol , alcohol and still alcohol. Been drinking alot lately. I hate the first moment I open my eyes everyday. When one over shot his physical limit, one will become very high. When one reaaches the mental limit that he can handle, one will become numb. Iszit really numb or just that your mind is just making a better way out by chosing to ignore.

Not used to now because too used to the past.....

There stood 2 trees standing at the water front. Both of them had one leaf left on the trees. Then one fine day both the leaves fell and left the trees. Then tree A asked tree B," How come your leaf left you?" Tree B said " My leaf left me because someone took her away, she fell for the wind." What about you tree A? Tree A replied," I really do not know, I treated her so well giving every thing I can to her but I still fail to hold her in the end".

After sometime tree B bloom and had many leaves on him while tree A was still leafless. Tree B said" Hey dude how come you looks so lonely?" Tree A said" I don't seems to forget the last leaf that left me."

The leaving of the leaf iszit due to the wind or the in capable of tree? And iszit that when there alot of leaves on the tree, the leaf will try their very best to hold on to the tress, afriad that the tree will give up on her someday?

But what I am feeling now is the tree is incapable to hold on tight to the leaf. The leaf left because the tree wasn't perfect and think that the tree is not important at all. The depart of the leat left a really deep crack on the tree which is just like a tatoo which will never be gone. Isn't it the same as the sweet and heartbroken memories left in my heart?

Tree will eventually die....

Ps: I gave in my all for you but you really hurt me in the end...

How do you tell if one is lying? i would like to know the answer someday. I stumbled upon this question one fine day. Nothing was said and everything stood still. I contemplated on what to do but there was only silence. The situation leave me sad or heartbroken and i don't know why, i actually found it... whats the word?... oh ya, ANNOYING!!! I was thinking too much over a trivial situation? How foolish i was to think so highly of it! I thought it will be forever. Now everything was clear. Life goes on but "I think you are not important to me" still will appear in my world somehow. Hope you will be happy. Happy without me maybe?

Ws dunno what happen, dunno wat to do. Ws sad sad :(

Ok I know its kind of late to post the new year eve pictures up lol. Was kind of lazy here as you can see. Spent my new year eve with the usual at a KTV pub. Wrote my wishes on the balloon and sent it up to the sky. Hope it will come true haha. Then headed to DBL o but we never went in lol. Its 2009 now. It will be a good year, it will be. Some update about me lately, I had been slping most of the morning away lately. Then I will appear at Taka. It had become part of my life I guess haha.
However I don't think I can do this from tml onwards anymore. Seriously I really don't feel like booking in. The feeling is so ^%$%@^&. Oh ya this week I am a good boy, I never step into any club. CNY is around the corner, which means its time for shopping. I got hell lots of things I want to buy but the only problem is I got enough cash ornot haha. Hopefully I can manage to buy as much as I can handle.

Ps:iwillmissyoumanymanynextweekla