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Due to H1N1 all clubbing had been put on hold for me. Speaking of clubbing why am I clubbing. Some people had ask me this question before. For the start I was curious then after some heart breaking issue I clubbed more. I went there to some how numb myself from those unhappy feeling trying to pick myself up and maybe thats what I call find myself. However did I really found it.

Who to blame? I guess I can only blame it on why I took my first step into knowing whats a r/s and whats the feeling of falling in love with someone that I feel different from the rest. Since the very first try out I had leave myself too many scars from r/s. And its slowly eating away my confidence bit by bit. Had asked myself after each failure, iszit something I did was wrong. I tried everything I can I gave freedom, I tolerate and give in to everything even till a point I need to even close both of my eyes. However this NICE thing is not getting me anywhere. The same ending happend agian and again and once again.

I always wanted to be a present tense but I always become a past. Why iszit that I can only be one memories.

Oh my drift away by my feelings lol. Ya been resting at home these few days. Watched transformer 2 on WED with joc, xt and alfred. The effect were good. As for today I played bball in the evening with my sec gang. Had dinner at semb with joc and jojo. Ate KFC again its the 2nd time this week for me.

PS: LIFE can you treat me better...