I found out why all the stranges things happen lately. Its a very simple change within me. Explaining it in a very engineering way. It simply just that the magnetic field within my heart had changed in the direction of circulation =)

Because I care?

Exam is one month away from now. Sucks to the core. Seen one of my friend drowning himself lately and I saw myself in the past. Speechless and because I been through worse thats why pls wake up your idea. No point and not worth it.

Lately I realise that there is this other character of me surfacing more and more often. Maybe its because of the reflection of myself I saw from whats happening to my friend. It trigger something in me, a super active "self-defending" system. Its like a spike that will activated when it feels that something is not fair to me. Its a sudden surge of adrenaline rush and being release out through my tone, speech and reaction.

But well should be a side effect after being hurt over and over again.

Something is really wrong... Arrrrhhhhhh off to bed

WAKE UP!!! Serious brain damage!!! Got to slap myself real hard

There's something wrong with me.

I just don't feel happy.

I feeling so incomplete.

Whats wrg?

Well well this is very lag post. BH bday!!!! Lazy to save and upload all the photos. It was held at the pasir ris holiday flats, a simple bbq, follow by a drinking session. The ususal were all there. And once again BDAY BOY never escape from the us, we made him puke haha.

Its been so long I had a boys out night since erm dunno when haha. It was fun but some unhappy things did happen. Some how or rather human mind set had presume that " boys night out " means wild and flirtish. But well it will be wild but not flirtish? We drink, we talk and had fun. Maybe of what I had been through I am more open now and maybe I am single for too long to have the feeling of "worrying and jealous".

I think everything falls back to trust. Its hard to build and easily broken. However if you had never trust your other half then why entrust yourselve as a bf or gf to the other half? This is a question or problem that most of us will face during BGR. Trust is like tonic, too much of it no good, too little no good either. If two can balance it well, congrats he or she is the one.

Now lets discuss about PATTERN. Pattern is some thing that occurs with sequence or the event occurs before and repeat itself in the same way. Most of the time is others who ask you can you spot the PATTERN. Just like in life, its the people around you spot UR PATTERN. U will not spot your OWN PATTERN because you did it repeatly but you just don't realise it.

Lastly I think my mouth quite CB. I like to make fun of shits that happen and make fun of people. Hmmm I shall keep quiet from now on. No more suaning, no more ka jiao way!!!!

I wanna be attached but nobody wants me.
I am single because nobody wants me.
Dare to say but dun dare to do because I know nobody wants me.
I know nobody nobody wants me.

Its been one week plus since I last blogged. Same old routine this whole week. Sick of studying but still I just got to do it. Been trying to find back the feeling of being jealous lately haha. I think I am out of my mind.

Been pondering over "WHAT IF" This two words can change your life. But most of the time when we say WHAT IF, its already too late. Life is short make the chioce fast and make it worth while because there is no point to ponder over "WHAT IF".