OK saw smth I should not have went to see. But nvm I won a best actor of the year for being one time big fool in hokkien is call " Kam Lan ". She put up quite a show from the start till the end. And toying with my fucking feelings all along. DISGUSTED! Feeling so dam NOT WORTH IT!
But its ok I forgive her. Got to thank her for the lesson that I learnt. I am doing very well in my life now.
I am smiling form the bottom of my heart =)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Today was suppose to be a beautiful day and a mark of an ending which I kept it all with beautiful memories. But shit happend. What a day for me. I recieved a phone call from one that I loved so much and she fuck me upside down. And me not knowing what actually happen felt shock. Harsh words just came into my ear and pircing straight through my heart. Sometime you really dun not need a knife to kill someone. Word alone can do the job. And its better as it will not kill you but torture your inside.
Then followed by harsh and deadly sms form her. My heart was pronouce dead that moment. From the start till the end and even after, I was trying my best to love, to care and protecting her. But all these doesn't seems to be acknowledge by her. She really only care about her feelings when she said those things. I am also human. Have you not done enough damge to my heart, you just want it dead don't you. It is so hurting till I felt nothing. If you really want it this way so be it. A guardian angel also has his own limit, what make it worse is that the one who pull the trigger right on the spot and kills him off was the one he was always protecting with his wings.
What have I done to deserve this. Now that the angel is dead my duty is over really over. Not to say I am the best but I did my part with my best when I was still on duty. You can go round doing or say what you want and I am not affected anymore. Who care how they people will look at me or see me as. Since this is way you wanted it, I will accept it. I will not hate you. Do take care and wishing you all the best from the bottom of my heart.
I am on my way throug the dragon gate now.
Its just a major exam in my life that I got to face but I leanrt alot from it.
Then followed by harsh and deadly sms form her. My heart was pronouce dead that moment. From the start till the end and even after, I was trying my best to love, to care and protecting her. But all these doesn't seems to be acknowledge by her. She really only care about her feelings when she said those things. I am also human. Have you not done enough damge to my heart, you just want it dead don't you. It is so hurting till I felt nothing. If you really want it this way so be it. A guardian angel also has his own limit, what make it worse is that the one who pull the trigger right on the spot and kills him off was the one he was always protecting with his wings.
What have I done to deserve this. Now that the angel is dead my duty is over really over. Not to say I am the best but I did my part with my best when I was still on duty. You can go round doing or say what you want and I am not affected anymore. Who care how they people will look at me or see me as. Since this is way you wanted it, I will accept it. I will not hate you. Do take care and wishing you all the best from the bottom of my heart.
I am on my way throug the dragon gate now.
Its just a major exam in my life that I got to face but I leanrt alot from it.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.
What is broken is broken, and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken pieces as long as I lived.
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me.
Embrace pain and burn it as fuel
Dragon Gate I am going through now....
What is broken is broken, and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken pieces as long as I lived.
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me.
Embrace pain and burn it as fuel
Dragon Gate I am going through now....
Monday, July 12, 2010
Went to catch knight and day alone just now. It was a good show. I love the action plus the love. Why can't my love be like that siol. The girl risk the life for the guy and vice versa. I also love one quote from the show which is " Its all the small things that counts". Because for me I appreciate all the samll thins rather than all the great things that happen on the certain date or day. I loved, I cared, I treasured, I cried, I really lost. Bankrupted all my heart and it hurts alot. And I had to emphasised again no one will ever understand what my heart had gone through. Its not like I want to feel emo, its not that I like eating alone, Its not like I really wish to watch movie or do whatever shit alone. Friends are there but they themselve have their own life. I do not want to always got to disturb their life therefore I got to learn to be alone. Who likes to be sad who likes to be lonely right. World cup had end and its gonna be that square again.
If I had not love with all my truthful heart, I would not end up with a broken heart
Is it a curse or is it not but the matter of fact I am afraid to love anymore.
If I had not love with all my truthful heart, I would not end up with a broken heart
Is it a curse or is it not but the matter of fact I am afraid to love anymore.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Today will be the last match of world cup. Which means to say I am really gonna be back to square one with my libra weight thats being thrown off balance. Guess I am a pure libra after all. Feeling kicking in once again.
You tell me not to be sad but what else can i do? I've been trying to justify why. You were cold like it doesnt even matter that i care. Many had my held my heart before but no one has as tight as you. I tried so hard to keep you here but i lost another fight in losing you, my dear.
How I wish that ......You would still care.
“Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.”
Walking alone and off I go. Nite.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Air and Fire:
This is a dynamic combo, with Air being able to create an outline of meaning through thought for the Fire to be inspired by. Air helps Fire take a more logical path toward success, some direction for their leaps of faith. Fire gives Air a sense of mission, purpose, and shines a light of focus through the jumble of collected data, thoughts, information.
This is a dynamic combo, with Air being able to create an outline of meaning through thought for the Fire to be inspired by. Air helps Fire take a more logical path toward success, some direction for their leaps of faith. Fire gives Air a sense of mission, purpose, and shines a light of focus through the jumble of collected data, thoughts, information.
Secondhand Serenade Your Call
Just changed my blog song to this song. Spent whole day at sentosa siloso beach chalet. It was supposed to be a ultra gathering but most of the poeple pull plug during the last minutes. So disgusting, next time if you don't wish to attend just say you not coming right form the start. SO WO DON:T HAVE TO WASTE FOOD. But its still quite a fun day because its also a BDAY celebration for Frankie haha. Hope he is happy for what we did to HIM LOL. Reached home in the afternoon today shag to the max. Did not sleep for one whole day from yesterday. Hence spent the other half of the day sleeping.
And right now feeling so awake and the feeling is kicking in again. Feeling lonely now. I am missing the warm hug right here right now. The feeling of missing the one you love with a smile is more beautiful than missing one with tears =)
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Today was quite a day. I am back to square one like I always am when I am single. Went school to hand in the stupid form for just a fucking 0AU prescribe lab. Waste my time. Then went down to BBDC to get my PDL and booked my final theory. I am gonna have my lisence, hopefully by then I got a car to drive. After that I went down to bugis bai bai as well as seek guidedian from guan ying niang niang. Its the first time I tried the shake shake thing which we call qui qian in chinese. I got an yes from guan ying niang niang on the second attemp.
The qian goes like: " Everything will be fine, everything will be solved and that I had reach the dragon-gate, one's name become famous". Hopefully what my heart hope for will turn out to be good like what the qian says.
After that I went to town to look for my new ear piece and thats when the shopping spreen all started. Spent quite abit on myself today. But never to deny when I passed the places or shops, memories filled my mind. My heart felt the sharp pain. I think this pain will always be there because its part of me now. Glad that she is happy spending her everyday. Guess to love someone without having her is quite something for me to slowly master.
Strange huh when you are sad you should listen to some happy songs but I chose to listen to emo songs. they just suit my mood. Got to admit I still love, care and worry about her but I only can watch her by the side now. Just want her to be happy, healthy and safe. I regretted that when I got the chance why din't I treasure every seconds to care for her and I also regretted that I lost myself during the end. But what to do? Chance don't come easily. When it slipped pass it means its gone forever.
If 100% is the max, 60% of me had moved on but 40% had been locked away in my heart. I am a libra and for libra when they found something worht it, they will not forget it easily. Cos I really loved. Oh ya and I found something to explain why people thinks that I am too nice.
I am not stupid or too nice ok just that " 容忍的人其实并不笨, 只是宁可对自己残忍"
I shall take these time now to keep on improveing myself and to grow up more.
Till that day when I can proudly say that I am a worthy bf or husband.
Signing off again
一直在一傍默默守护你的人
The qian goes like: " Everything will be fine, everything will be solved and that I had reach the dragon-gate, one's name become famous". Hopefully what my heart hope for will turn out to be good like what the qian says.
After that I went to town to look for my new ear piece and thats when the shopping spreen all started. Spent quite abit on myself today. But never to deny when I passed the places or shops, memories filled my mind. My heart felt the sharp pain. I think this pain will always be there because its part of me now. Glad that she is happy spending her everyday. Guess to love someone without having her is quite something for me to slowly master.
Strange huh when you are sad you should listen to some happy songs but I chose to listen to emo songs. they just suit my mood. Got to admit I still love, care and worry about her but I only can watch her by the side now. Just want her to be happy, healthy and safe. I regretted that when I got the chance why din't I treasure every seconds to care for her and I also regretted that I lost myself during the end. But what to do? Chance don't come easily. When it slipped pass it means its gone forever.
If 100% is the max, 60% of me had moved on but 40% had been locked away in my heart. I am a libra and for libra when they found something worht it, they will not forget it easily. Cos I really loved. Oh ya and I found something to explain why people thinks that I am too nice.
I am not stupid or too nice ok just that " 容忍的人其实并不笨, 只是宁可对自己残忍"
I shall take these time now to keep on improveing myself and to grow up more.
Till that day when I can proudly say that I am a worthy bf or husband.
Signing off again
一直在一傍默默守护你的人
Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person.
If I had not taken my chance I would have miss out the best things that came into my life therefore I never regret because you once made me smile.
To err is human, so just leave it at A.
signing out,
AADEN
If I had not taken my chance I would have miss out the best things that came into my life therefore I never regret because you once made me smile.
To err is human, so just leave it at A.
signing out,
AADEN
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Dream last night
Dog
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten.
Bicycle
To see a bicycle in your dream, indicates that you need to devote time to leisurely pursuits and recreation.
Friends
To see friends in your dream, signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend, indicates positive news.
Ex
Metaphorically, seeing your ex in your dream may also signify aspects of yourself that you have x'd out or neglected.
Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day.
Tears
To dream that you are in tears, signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten.
Bicycle
To see a bicycle in your dream, indicates that you need to devote time to leisurely pursuits and recreation.
Friends
To see friends in your dream, signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend, indicates positive news.
Ex
Metaphorically, seeing your ex in your dream may also signify aspects of yourself that you have x'd out or neglected.
Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day.
Tears
To dream that you are in tears, signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.
Summary of today. DISGUSTED by how SUAY I can get in one day.
1. Module cannot get when I click whole afternoon.
2. Printer fail on me on such an IMPT day.
3. Cab all the fucking way down to school and the people there knock off early. ( $40 on cab).
4. Went to KW BDAY and the cab uncle dunno how to go!
5. Brazil lost!!!
1. Module cannot get when I click whole afternoon.
2. Printer fail on me on such an IMPT day.
3. Cab all the fucking way down to school and the people there knock off early. ( $40 on cab).
4. Went to KW BDAY and the cab uncle dunno how to go!
5. Brazil lost!!!
Friday, July 2, 2010
I am here to blog again. My blog has been the place where I vomit everything out lately haha. Late june till now is total FML peroid. I am left alone to continue with the story. I loss everything just like that "poff". Who on the right mind won't want to be happy but sometimes its just too bad can't help it. No matter of advice, lecturing or comforting all of them are just words. Easy to say but when you are in the position its hard to execute. Its because no one will ever to be able to feel how you felt completely from head to toe. I am no stupid, just that I find you as one of the things thats worth it in my life. But anyway I got to continue the story myself now. Times when I flip back and read the previous chapters I will always have a smile on my face thats for sure. Thanks for being in these 10 chapters of my life =)
Now for things going in to the lesson learn through life experience part. I should really be really really careful when putting my trust on people around me. Lucky I got quite a few bros and a cow ( you know who you are ) which I think I can really trust. Because theres really shape shifters in this world no joke. Infront of you one shape behind of you another shape. No it should be "shapes". Shape shifter you still can mold your shape and I guess I am still ok to say HI.
Now for things going in to the lesson learn through life experience part. I should really be really really careful when putting my trust on people around me. Lucky I got quite a few bros and a cow ( you know who you are ) which I think I can really trust. Because theres really shape shifters in this world no joke. Infront of you one shape behind of you another shape. No it should be "shapes". Shape shifter you still can mold your shape and I guess I am still ok to say HI.
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