Today was quite a day. I am back to square one like I always am when I am single. Went school to hand in the stupid form for just a fucking 0AU prescribe lab. Waste my time. Then went down to BBDC to get my PDL and booked my final theory. I am gonna have my lisence, hopefully by then I got a car to drive. After that I went down to bugis bai bai as well as seek guidedian from guan ying niang niang. Its the first time I tried the shake shake thing which we call qui qian in chinese. I got an yes from guan ying niang niang on the second attemp.
The qian goes like: " Everything will be fine, everything will be solved and that I had reach the dragon-gate, one's name become famous". Hopefully what my heart hope for will turn out to be good like what the qian says.
After that I went to town to look for my new ear piece and thats when the shopping spreen all started. Spent quite abit on myself today. But never to deny when I passed the places or shops, memories filled my mind. My heart felt the sharp pain. I think this pain will always be there because its part of me now. Glad that she is happy spending her everyday. Guess to love someone without having her is quite something for me to slowly master.
Strange huh when you are sad you should listen to some happy songs but I chose to listen to emo songs. they just suit my mood. Got to admit I still love, care and worry about her but I only can watch her by the side now. Just want her to be happy, healthy and safe. I regretted that when I got the chance why din't I treasure every seconds to care for her and I also regretted that I lost myself during the end. But what to do? Chance don't come easily. When it slipped pass it means its gone forever.
If 100% is the max, 60% of me had moved on but 40% had been locked away in my heart. I am a libra and for libra when they found something worht it, they will not forget it easily. Cos I really loved. Oh ya and I found something to explain why people thinks that I am too nice.
I am not stupid or too nice ok just that " 容忍的人其实并不笨, 只是宁可对自己残忍"
I shall take these time now to keep on improveing myself and to grow up more.
Till that day when I can proudly say that I am a worthy bf or husband.
Signing off again
一直在一傍默默守护你的人
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